With all this pain in my chest, I still wish you the best.

So........idk la srsly.

I honestly thought today was gonna be a good day cause my mum and I finally made peace ytd after a week of silent treatment and cold shoulders as a result of a heated argument btw us.

Had Chem tuition from 9am-10.30am and it was enjoyable because I tried to make the session as light-hearted as possible which worked! I also understood what I was being taught so it felt really good.

It may seem stupid to feel good over such a minuscule matter but it means alot to me cause it makes me feel as though I'm actually improving; I'm a step closer to achieving better grades, hopefully. Insyallah.

Caught a power nap for about 15mins before going for ngaji. #TeamPowerNap ah siol. ✌✌

Ngaji from 11:30am-1pm and it was enjoyable cause I spent the whole time talking to Hana. We were talking about the people that we both knew and our opinions of them and all. Basically, it was a gossiping session, woops ;x Alahais, oh well. Hmm, we did share alot of laughters though and we continued to laugh even more when we bumped into Shekha after class. I love those 2 noobs <3 p="p">

With that, I honestly thought for once, "Hey, you know what, today's gonna be a good day. I just know it."

But in the end, as usual, life can't stand seeing you happy so it decides to f*ck it up for you in one way or another. Hmm, so this time round, I got shouted at in public. #whatsnew

Just because you're in a bad mood, doesn't mean you go venting it out on others alright? Get that shit clear in your head and make it stay there. I'm done with try'na speak sense into you cause it'll just make you misunderstand my intentions even more. 

Reached home after walking in the scorching hot sun, carrying tons of groceries. Le sigh. Prayed Zuhur and then attempted to catch a nap because I was feeling really giddy but was awakened by my parents' shouting and screaming. Again, #whatsnew la eh? Attempted to do emath asynch afterwards but only "survived" through 1/4 of it cause I gave up soon after. I just had no mood to do anything. How could I possibly be in the mood after all this? Sigh.

I just wish I knew what exactly to do/say or anything at all that would help make the situation at home better.

Alas, I hold no such power.

"Start with Bismillah. End with Alhamdulillah. Patience with SubhanAllah. Promise with InsyaAllah. Your life will be blessed by Allah." 

I should do this from now on. Maybe then, it'd be easier for me to live this life.