It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert.

Messy hair, imperfect teeth, blemished complexion, panda eyes, heavy eyebags, haggard-looking, oversized shirt. How you like me now? #justsaying

Well, that's the exact same caption I used when I posted the same picture on Instagram.

I actually locked myself up in the room and looked in the mirror.

I didn't like what I saw tbh. I was growing up, in all aspects but to me, it just meant growing up to be more f-ed up be it in the physical, mental or emotional aspect.

I decided to take a picture like what I always do (not gonna deny the fact). I usually end up deleting picture after picture after picture till I get the one I'm satisfied with but this time round, I just took one and stuck with it. Maybe because I should learn to be satisfied with the current situation; with the current me (?) Definitely not the best picture I've ever taken but hey, looks aren't everything. Personality is what counts and what makes people stay. Sadly, I've yet to have the ideal personality that everyone loves and adores cause I'm forever being judged by anyone and everyone. It's ok, I'm learning how to deal with it.

I just wish these people would realize how much damage they're doing. 

Do they even have the right to cause such damage?


On a side note, 

Read it anti-clockwise starting with longest picture in terms of dimension. Sorry I can't adjust the positioning of these pictures for idk what asdfghjkl reason haissssss. 

Anyways, hi Tobi, if you see this, thank you, for giving me that slight boost in my confidence. Ily. x