It's just too painful to bear but yet, I'm still praying that you and me might end up together.

Do you?

Being left, abandoned, hanging or whatever you may call it is undeniably one of the worst feelings ever. Indeed, many other things do hurt us as well but to be thrown aside should also be included in the package. Who likes being abandoned by the one they thought they could trust; the one that they love and care for? It hurts. Boy, does it fucking hurt. It hurts because for a moment there, you made me believe that I had a chance. You made me believe that we COULD happen. We almost happened but I don't know what got into your head that made you change your mind. Was it really because she came back into your life? Or is there some other reason that you're not telling me, not telling anyone? What is it? I hate how you've left me in complete suspense.

Like, who dafuq gave you the right to?

Who dafuq gave you the right to play me like that?

Who dafuq allowed you to make me feel like shit?

Who dafuq said you have the right to make empty promises?

Who dafuq gave you the permission to break this fragile heart of mine?

Yes, I like you alot.

Do you wanna know something else? 

I love you.

Yes, I do and as crazy as it sounds, I'm serious.

I've never dared to say this to anyone else, really and I don't know why.

You're just different, you really are but now, it's like I don't know you anymore.

I'm scared because have I been falling in love with the false side of you all this while?

Wtf is going on? Who dafuq are you really? 

Although we don't talk anymore, I still think about you alot; like, alot alot.

I think about you too much that I upset myself and I end up crying because I miss the past.

I fucking miss the past.

You gave it meaning, you really did.

But now, as much as I don't want to, I'm doubting if you really did.

I'm doubting if you really meant those 3 words when you said you did.

I don't know what to believe anymore.

(But honestly, I still choose to believe that you meant it.)

It did; it made a huge difference.

I was truly happy in a loooooooooong time, if only you knew.

But now that you've left before it even begun, I'm utterly distraught, I really am.

I know I shouldn't keep running back to you but I'm sorry, I can't help it.

I'm only human.

You're also running back to that one person.

You should know how it feels.

Please don't give up on me, please don't.

Please come back, please.

I want to go back but you don't allow me to so I'm just hoping that you realise how much I'm missing you.

I hate the feeling of being strangers or even worse, complete enemies.

Please don't to this to me, please.

I'm sorry if I come across as desperate but it's only me, truly loving you.

As cheesy as it sounds, god damn it, it's TRUE okay.

Why won't you believe me?

Is this why you're mistreating me? Is this why you suddenly cut me off from your life totally?

But, what is that supposed to mean?

You don't like me being around issit?

No, that cannot be the case.

It just can't.

"Never regret something that made you happy at one point in time."

Therefore, I don't regret knowing you and being close to you although it has led to disappointments.

Thank you for the memories <3

I know I'm supposed to give up on you but I won't.

At least, not now.

Please tell me it's not only hard for me.

It's hard for you too, right?

Tell me I'm right cause you seem to portray the total opposite.

It's like you forgot about me so fast, how do you even do it?
 I really need to learn from you cause I need to forget about you too.