Dirty Bit.

AHAAHHAHAHAH Simon & Martina from EatYourKimchi NEVER fail to make me LOL irl.

So yeah, anyways, only fans of EatYourKimchi will understand the story behind the meme above xD Heh.

I'm heading out now, gonna go meet up with my cousins at Hadi's house and then, off to Pasir Ris Park to cycle! Though, I don't know how to cycle. HAHA, I'll probably just be the freak taking photos of them and enjoying the scenery like a fail tourist :b HEEHEE. 

On the other hand, Yasin is a damn cute abg I swear. He's so alim for he was like, "Amira, I go masjid first okay (:" Awwh, such a good boy :3 Things didn't work out btw us as a couple but I'm glad I still get to keep him as a friend and more importantly, as an abang. ILY Yasin <3 Good luck with Shahirah. HAHA (;

Ok, this is quite a fail post. Gotta go now! xx.

I've loved you for a thousand years. ♥

Harlu everyone <: Today's pretty eventful though I've spent almost the whole of today at home. But still, I try to make the most of it. Let's backtrack ok?


So yeah, I got up at about 9:30am this morning according to what my mum said that is but yet, I believe I woke up at 9am because I finished cooking at about 10:30 so yeah, try to make sense out of that. My mum taught me how to cook Nasi Goreng Sambal Belacan or Nasi Goreng Kampung rather for breakfast! I chopped the french beans, onion and other stuffs. I cried when I was cutting the onion ya knw!! I thought such things didn't happen in real life and only happened in movies!! My eyes were damn watery and painful but don't worry, I survived ;-)) hehe.
It turned out pretty good; nice but REALLY spicy. Guess I should not put too much sambal belacan next time huh? Anywaysss, my pedas nasi goreng caused me to poo poo and release the heat within me about an hour later. HAHAHAH k. Thennnn, I was in a quite hardworking mode; I started a "glossary" word doc for words in "The Chrysalids" which I do not know. I've only "attacked" the intro of the book and there's already ALOT of words I do not know. Meh, I feel dumb :\
While I was doing so, I was also chatting with my cousins thru fb at the same time. They're all going to Hadi's house tmr and to Pasir Ris Park after that; all that was planned WITHOUT me like whaddafug. But then, they ajak me and then I tried to persuade my mum but she like tak layan me. Haissss. Let's just pray for a miracle that she'll drop me off at Hadi's place tmr while she goes for her reunion thingy ); #prettyplease. About 2 hours plus later, I became hungry again so I asked my maid to masak for me maggie goreng for lunch/tea/whatever you're gonna call it. Ate it while watching the Doctor Oz show which is uber awesome ttm. It's a really awesome show ya knw #justsaying
In between the breaks of the show, I decided to install the "Path" app on my iPhone and tried to familiarize myself with it. Then, I spent minutes camwhoring, trying to get the perfect first picture to post on Path but to no avail. Sighs, #epicfail. 
After that, my mum and I discussed about what to cook for dinner and our finalized menu was:

• Ayam Masak Merah
• Cereal Prawns
• French Beans in Oyster Sauce

BAM baby, doesn't that sound good? ;-)) Helped my maid sediakan some of the listed ingredients and now, here I am bloggging away about what has happened today so far! HEHE, told ya my day has been pretty eventful :3 meow.

P.S. I forgot to mention that I fell in love with the song, "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri after weeks of thinking it was a stupid, sappy love song. WOOPS ;P

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

Isteri : ape yang abg fikirkan tentang sy eh?
Suami : awak abcdefghijk...
Isteri : ape tu??
Suami : adorable, beautiful, cute, delightful, elegant, foxy, gorgeous & hot..
Isteri : ijk?
Suami : I'm just kidding..hahaha
Isteri : abang ni...lmn..
Suami : lmn?
Isteri : lempang muka nak??

kalau kita jawab , kurang ajar . kalau kita diam sabar , pijak kepala plak .

You know I feel your pain 'cause I done been through it

This pretty bitch above has been my twitter dp for almost 2 months now? Well anyways, changed my twitcon and fb profile picture to make them the same. Heehee.

I've most definitely gained bigger eyebags but heck, I'm still happy. ♥

I'm currently hooked onto Dappy's "No Regrets". It's a really amazing song that's so inspiring and just so unique. 

Why inspiring? It's because it includes lyrics like "No regrets, no regrets. No point in crying over yesterday, ay"

Why unique? It's because it includes several quotes from several famous people and they still fit perfectly into the song, rhyming with the lines before and after them; PURE GENIUS.

For example:

"I messed my life up, and yeah, I've been down

I'm a changed man now - Chris Brown"
Do you see the awesome-ness of this song now? HOMG I swear it's so good. Dappy, I ♥ you.
Thanks to this guy, I've become happier recently; no kidding I swear. Thank you Dappy sir'. ;D
Anyways, much has happened recently but I'm trying my best to not give a fuck and continue living my life the way I want it to be. I'm currently done with letting assholes and bitches mess up my life so I'm finally putting my foot down. Nobody messes with me and gets away with it. 
I'm currently quite happy and I wish to stay that way for a long time. ♥ Please.

Easy reading is damn hard writing. — Nathaniel Hawthorne

No Regrets.

Harlu everybody <: 

I spent today morning watching 1D video diaries but sadly, I'm still not done with them for I got distracted by something else. Heh, #foreverprocrastinating.

Then, this smartkid here just realised that her PSP (which she hasn't touched in over a year) could surf the web with wifi! So yeah, I searched for it like a mad dog and eventually found it. I finally hooked it up to my home's wifi and it worked! It can go to twitter and fb and practically any site BUT it has not enough memory to play videos on Youtube ); sighs, nvm, at least i can update my social networks while I'm overseas! *cheese*

Technically, I wouldn't have to go through all this trouble if my dearest mother had allowed me to bring my iPhone but noooooo, she doesn't wanna risk losing it. Pffsh, as if I'm THAT irresponsible. Hmph.

Anyways, mission accomplished! AND AND AND Hadi is coming for the trip and not his camp thingy! YAY!

I have my bestest annoying yet funniest cousin for company! <333

Anyways, I experienced technical problems with my PSP's memory card and I spent about 3 hours freaking out, trying to fix it. After sourcing out every way possible, I decided to just restart the whole darn computer and guess what? Restarting my tpc solved all my problems. Aigoo...

Currently chatting with with Hazeem thru msn. Long time since we did, lol. We're like a pair of angry birds, insulting each other but calling each other "my dear" at the same time. 0.0 fugging weird ttm i swear.

Kbye for now! I'm going overseas tmr! xoxo.

I loved words. I love to sing them and speak them and even now, I must admit, I have fallen into the joy of writing them. — Anne Rice

We used to have what we had, get it?

Currently addicted to Taio Cruz's "Hangover". I've come to realise that I'm starting to like clubbish/party music nowadays. Wait, that makes sense right? K, lol whatever.


Well fuck it, I'm finally on my period after a gazillion weeks -.- Now that I've gotten it again, I'm wishing it would just disappear like "kapoosh!" I'm always having to worry whether it will overflow and stain my bottoms anot. Meh, hate it.


Anyways, was supposed to initially head on over to Ridhuan's house today but fuck it; change of plans. In short, practically NOTHING went right today. Sadly, I don't have the mood to elaborate more on that. I'm just so fucking disappointed with how today turned out. It should be pretty obvious enough considering how much vulgarities I'm using in this post. #justsaying


I'm gonna head to the NTUC nearby soon. Gonna buy cat food with my mum. Honestly, I have no mood to go out thanks to my monthly nature call. Sighsighsigh.


Here's another thought:
I'm going overseas next week! (Saturday, 17/12/2011, to be exact) F I N A L L Y, it's M Y turn to leave Singapore temporarily. Everyone's like overseas now and I'm like" meep. i'm still stuck in sg." I honestly can't wait to go Bandung with my cousins <3 I really need to feel the bond I felt with them when we went for a holiday together to Terengganu last year :\ I miss all that, alot. I've been a bitch to them this year, I know. That's because 2011 has really been a fucked up year; sad to say. Well, I really hope the trip will be fruitful and fun. But the downside is, I can't bring my phone -.- Fuck this shit.
"Ya Allah, please jangan kasih ayah saya buat hal semasa kita pergi ke Bandung ya? Terima kasih Allah <3"


Almost forgot; I went for my mum's seconday school reunion at one of her friend's house ytd. Coincidentally, afiq is one of my mum's ex-schmate's son! Talk about a small world! I practically said to my mum, "eep! get me out of here now!" And she was like," where u gonna go huh?" Pfft. I think that reaction of mine makes it pretty obvious that I like him. My mum knew that afiq was my friend all the while and she didn't tell me earlier. Haiyo this woman. Haish. So yeah, I was try'na avoid his gaze the whole time and I was indirectly talking to him on twitter instead. Typical, unsociable ass :\ sighs. It was damn awkward ok!!! He was like uber cute and I was like some ugly freak there... When I was about to leave, he came over to my side and we made EYE CONTACT. But da fuq, I don't know what I was thinking okay. I actually stuck my tongue out at him instead of smiling! GAH. And he stared at me afterwards as if he was thinking, "WTH. o.o" He treats me like an acquaintance but sadly, he doesn't know that I ACTUALLY like him... He has eyes for somebody else but who, I'm not sure. He even treats Lush better than me when she's like a pms-ing bitch -.- Oh forget it, what was I thinking? I'm not even close to him or anything. Not like he's gonna give me the chance to be close to him.... Can I just kill myself rn? :\


After that, we dropped by Aunty Rosnah's place for her daughter's b'day party although it was practically like; over. LOL. Anyways, I got slightly cheered up when Uncle Jai gave me a bunch of lightsticks ^^ I got to watch the eclipse from their condo rooftop. It was uber cool :3 But sadly, it can't be seen clearly through the pics we took ): During all that, afiq suddenly mentioned me on twitter and I was happykid101 for a moment there. I mean, it actually meant that I crossed his mind! (even if it was just 1 second) I smiled like an idiot i tell u!!! >.< But eventually when Lush joined the convo, it practically went nowhere and he forgot about me. Thanks alot you fucking bitch -.- U R G H.


I'm gonna end here for today. I'm just really not in the mood at all.

a happy, retarded kid.

Harluuuu everybody <: So yeah, I opened up Youtube to listen to INFINITE's 'Paradise' initially but then I saw there was a notification in my inbox so I decided to check it out first. Someone had send me a reply comment so I was wondering, "in reply to what? i can't possibly rmb on such short notice." I went to click on the video to scroll through all the comments. So, this was the video that I was redirected to:

So I scrolled and scrolled and scrolled to see my comment from over a year ago. Apparently, I commented "omg! did u see donghae look into the cam!?i practically DIED*" 

I was shocked to see 53 thumbs up for that noob comment of mine. Then, I saw 2 reply comments to it too! I decided to watch the video again so I clicked on the original link and obvsly, the page refreshed. That was when I got the biggest surprise of my life. 

I saw this:

HEHEHEHE. Do you see it? The highlighted comment in blue is mine!! Don't mind the lame Youtube username please for that was created last year :p Well anyways, I got 53 thumbs up and I was one of the top comments!!! ASDFGHJKL. It's an achievement to me ok. Call me childish or whatever but I totally spazzed when I found out. #proudkid here. Me-0w. 

K, fine. The end <:

"I am the hoper of far-flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams. What labels me, negates me. ♡"

I swear I've been feeling so stressed lately. I'm literally having a pimple outbreak near the edge of my scalp and on my forehead. #urgh
was fucking stressed thanks to somebody but ya knw what? heck bout that asshole already. I'm done, like finally, literally fucking done. goodbye you. what was i thinking? we were over in 13 days, (is 13 really that unlucky a number? :\) why bother reigniting the spark that had already long gone disappeared hmm? but nevertheless, thanks for the memories. you were my 1st (sadly) but thanks (: i can't deny i miss the past but that's the point of moving forward. we have to forget about the past so sadly but hesitantly, goodbye.
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Well on the other hand, ytd night was pretty epic. Hadi suddenly started an fb convo with me, asking if i was ok cause i seemed pretty down and emo on sunday night when we all went for supper together at east coast lagoon food village. I swear i literally went "awwh" and my heart melted. That budak perangai mcm mat kental actually cared about me <3 hehe, but ya knw guys? they have their pride so they don't want to admit to things that make them seem less "manly" :P
either way, thank you hadiboy <3 i swear ur the most annoying yet best cousin i have <3 ily bodoh (;
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However, the most annoying part was when for a moment there, I thought abg shibly was posing as hadi on fb again. I was so annoyed like asdfghjkl. and i was like maki-ing him. heh. then afterwards, hadi texted me and started to convince me that it was him all the while, making up all sorts of excuses. up till today, i still don't know who i was chatting with ytd night. was it hadi or abg shibly hmm? major headache i swear. whatever it is, i told hadi i would smack the shit outta him the next time we meet. #muahaha 
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Can't wait to go Bandung on the 17th! Sadly, we're only going for 6 days (might as well make it 1 week kan? HOMG useless parentals' planning) That is like 11 days away lehhh. SighSighSigh. The downside is, eee abg shibly's family is following. i mean, i have nothing against kak huda and her children (although alishah is annoying shit ; that brat) but i don't like abg shibly. annoying jer. he's funny at times but i still "hate" him. pffsh. I'M GONNA GO SHOPPING THERE I DON'T CARE. They better have nice, swag-ass clothes I tell you. Hmph. 
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Well, better get off here now. I promised myself to revise O'-level malay today and Imma do it right! <:
Tata for now peoplezxxccc. Have a good day! xx. <3

When was the last time you thought of me or have you completely erased me from your memory?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for youuuu tooooo.

urgh, i miss you so much. i fucking miss you so much. just a few days ago, you gave me hope and i thought that perhaps, there would be progress btw us after 1 whole year of waiting and being ignored. but then, you had to go and break my heart once again by ignoring me again soon after. whaddafug do you take me for? no, srsly.
i try to pretend that i'm strong enough to move on without you but it seems like you're able to do that and as for me? I can't. has it ever occurred to you how much you mean to me? i wish you could see whatever i'm typing now. it hurts, really. i miss you, really. do you miss me and want 'us' back, please?
i'm not gonna say much bcos' not much can change the awkward situation we've been put into.
i just have one thing to say: please, i beg you, stay away if you're just gonna mess with my feelings time and time again. i don't think my heart can handle heartbreaks anymore.

i'm this close to giving up on living. don't push me closer and closer to the edge of the cliff.