Your words, they cut like a knife.

You do this to me yet again.
But then again, there are 2 sides to a coin.
Idk how exactly you intended to put your words across but it seems as though I've taken it in a bad way and your words.......damn, they cut me like a knife when I read them.
Idk what you're try'na get at nor do I know what exactly you want of us.
It is 'us' now, right? Then why not act like it? Why do things not feel any different?
I'm supposed to be really special to you, right? Because you're really special to me.
But tbh, I feel undermined; under-appreciated. And it hurts so much, it really does.
It's okay if we can't meet up often, hey, I completely get that and it's fine by me. But, to the point whereby you can't even bother to keep up a proper whatsapp convo throughout a whole day for once? Is it really that hard to talk to me? That burdensome to think of ways to reply me? Maybe I'm overthinking all this but I believe there's some truth in the way I'm perceiving things between us rn, right? When we meet, you seem to want to be around me, you entertain my silly-ness. Yet on whatsapp, it's like you've got a split personality, ya know that? You can't seem to be bothered to talk to me whatsover. It's like I'm not worth your time.
Now you're saying we should not meet? If you miss that person, you'd want to meet him/her right? We already planned our next meet up. You said you'll try not to paitao me again this coming Sunday but you end up not even trying. Instead, you've decided not to go altogether. How the fuck am I supposed to take this? In a good way? Sorry, but I'm not a saint who's able to take everything positively.

Just stop fucking doing this to me.

Yes, I'm pathetic. I constantly need assurance to feel that I'm actually worth somebody's time, that people actually care about me, want to talk to me, have me on their minds, love being around me and whatnot.
I don't quite get that from you, only once in awhile when you're in a good mood.



I'm learning to be patient in this but you can't just step on my head.
I have fucking feelings too.