We're not meant to be.

"I don't like being reminded of you when I've been trying my best to forget you all along."

"I don't know how to feel. Indeed, I've become numb to the pain that it doesn't hurt anymore."

""Please remember me.""

Well, I tweeted all that because it's indeed how I'm feeling. I'm confused as to whether I miss you or the memories we shared. I get reminded me of you so easily when it's already very hard for to me to have to try to forget you and to think that I'm somewhat already there but you're able to just appear in my heart and mind again just like that, without you even doing anything but just the thought of you; that sucks. I try so very hard but you end up taking a detour when I clearly remember sending my feelings for you, far far away.

I looked through the pictures of you which I saved in my phone. Yes, a whole album dedicated to you. I'm not being overly-obsessive, don't get me wrong. Maybe, it was just me missing you too much that I could only resort to seeing you in pictures because we only met once. I still can't get over the day we met. I honestly thought that we could take things to a whole new level which we did but for some reason I'm still not sure of, we end up going back to what we were; strangers. Worse still, it seems as though we're complete enemies now. The day when you completely cut me off from your life; that really killed me.

You've blocked me on every social network and boy, that's really childish and immature of you. Considering the fact that you're 17, you have the freaking mindset of a 5 year old. I used to find that cute and undeniably adorable but now, it just gets to me, it pisses me off, it makes me wanna throw a fucking brick in your face. Who the fuck do you think you are? Kicking someone aside when you've gotten bored of them or rather, when the person you've liked all along walks back into your life? You promised you'd get over her for me, I didn't make you say all that mind you but you did, you fucking promised. I know it's not easy to get over someone you have deep feelings for. Hey look, isn't this the situation I'm in right now? Ironic, isn't it? But still, that doesn't mean you have to cut the other person off completely. You can go back to her, fine, I understand but fuck you for throwing me aside. Who said we can't still be friends? It may be awkward and all but if we actually put in the effort to keep the friendship, who knows? Well, we'll never know now, will we?

But as I release all this anger I've been holding in for so long towards you or rather, your fucked up, immature attitude, I still can't help but remember the bittersweet memories. Bitter because those sweet memories mean nothing to you anymore and because it won't make a difference as of present. We will never be the same and I've faced up to it. However, I do believe in second chances, who knows?

The sad thing is though, I thought I knew you but with all that has happened, I feel as though you're so distant from me that in reality, I don't seem to know much about you at all which is just plain scary. I fell for a stranger, a cold, heartless, emotionally brutal stranger who knows how to break a girl's heart. You were a player who had 17 ex's but I still gave you a chance cause I thought you would change but no, you've become even worse ever since we 'broke up'. We weren't even together in the first place but we were this darn close to being together. She just decided to walk back into your life but now, she has found someone else and you are not her special someone anymore. I can't help but say, serves you right. You deserve it.

You changed for the better because of me and I changed for the better because of you. But now, it's the total opposite. You've become a total mofo and I've become a cold bitch; cold because I've completely guarded my heart now.

This bittersweet friendship filled with beautiful memories didn't even last a full month.
Were we really that pathetic? Guess that's what we get for rushing into things.

But as previously mentioned earlier in this post, nevertheless, please remember me for I know I'll definitely remember you. I would very much like to say 'I love you' but I'm afraid I don't have the guts to say that anymore. Guess I'm never gonna hear it from you again either...



I just wish things could have stayed the same. I can't deny that.