Hey you, ok, I can't reveal your name for obvious reasons which you should know of lest somebody "unexpected" reads this and *jeng jeng jeng* there goes my reputation in school. Krik krik.
Ehhh not that I'm embarrassed to know you ok!! But, you know why kan kan kan? Ok, I'll take that as a yes HAHA. And I know you're laughing at my blog URL ok. Go ahead and laugh HAHA. I created it in Sec 1 so please try to understand how immature and childish I was back then. Heh.
Ok so hi "bitch", seriously cannot believe we call each other that. It's like so degrading but yet, it seems appropriate in this context. (Am I making sense? No? Aww damn.) So, kirakan we've known each other for a week la eh? But tbh, it feels like I've known you for quite some time in the sense that hmm...entahlah eh, maybe it's just me but I find that we can click pretty well despite knowing each other for only a short while. Thank you for trusting me to quite a huge extent. It means alot because like c'mon seyh, wouldn't you feel good when someone actually trusts you quite alot? So yes, that's how I feel (:
I know you've been quite upset lately or rather, upset every day and every night but you try your best to hide it. However, at times, you just can't hold it in anymore and you break down, just like that. You surround yourself with nothing but sadness and negative thoughts. You let your insecurities get the better of you. You start to think of the past you shared with her. Basically, you miss her alot but you don't know what to do anymore. You don't know what your heart is telling you. You just want her back but you don't know if that would be for the better or for the worse or it just wouldn't improve the current situation at all. "Bitch", don't think I'm that clueless as to how you're feeling ok. Kita kan ada telepathy, ingat tak? :b
Hmm, to put it simply, when you and her were still together, it's like what's sung in Lawson's "Taking Over Me" but now that you guys have separated, it's totally like Lawson's "When She Was Mine". Srs shit ok, you try and listen to both and really think about how it completely relates to your life!! Aiya my dearest "bitch", I know how it feels. Hmm, ok maybe not entirely but somewhat la krik krik.
Haiya "bitch", as much as you miss the past and her, you've got to pick yourself up and be happy. Please?
If two people are meant to be together, they will be EVENTUALLY. I believe you've done everything you could so all you can do now is leave it all up to fate. Trust Allah, He knows what's best for you. I know you ni bukan budak alim and all and neither am I. Previously, I often skipped my prayers but I'm trying to change that during the current bulan Ramadhan period. Honestly, if you ever feel so lost and distraught, turn to Allah in your prayers. I'm serious ok, at least trust me on this? Try your best kk!
I know today was supposed to be your special day with her. Sadly, your morning was full of tears and moodiness; past memories of her and whatnot. I'm just glad you didn't spend the whole day emo-ing though! Because you were very sad and I believe still upset, I promised you a surprise kan? Sigh, tbh, I was gonna make a vlog for you and crack up some lame ass funny shit to make you laugh and smile like an idiot like how you did on Skype yesterday. BUTTTTTTT, my mood was ruined late afternoon and you know why, right? And when I reached home, I was really upset and stressed out so I decided to sleep it off all the way till buka time so in the end, I decided to just do this blog post instead. Sorry if you expected more :-(
I really wanted to do a vlog for you since my stupidity and idioticness manages to cheer you up and all but given the time constraint and the fact that I slept like a pig............sighs, sorry "bitch". :-(
I promise to layan you on Skype whenever you need some ass to laugh at in order to cheer up or whenever you're bored ok? EH BUT DON'T TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS PRIVILEGE HORH. I'm not free all the time :p But, whatsapp will always be a daily routine, not to worry! ;3 On a side note, I really, really enjoy whatsapping you and all, it never fails to make my day for the past week. Got to admit, I've been slightly happier this past week and it's thanks to you "bitch", thank you ;') Your lameness and stupidity and step sombong-ness never fails to crack me up xD You're amazing just the way you are so please stop feeling insecure about yourself. Remember the emotional and physical aspects of you which you asked me to comment on? I meant every word of it so you better not forget whatever I said okay!!! You're great in plenty of ways so stop belittling yourself "bitch". And, don't ever feel like nobody deserves you cause everybody deserves somebody which includes you too, alright?
Hmm, I would really like to continue this actually but I scared it's too long and then later, you malas nak baca everything how? Waste my efforts only, HAHA kidding. Eh but must read everything kk!! ^^v
So lastly, idk eh, I just want to thank you for entering my life? Does that make sense? HAHA.
Whatever was "discussed" through whatsapp last night and into the wee hours of the morning, sigh, I guess just pretend I never said anything cause I don't know how you would see it. And whatever I told you this afternoon about my personal problems, don't tell anyone else kay? I trust you, ya knw "bitch"? Thank you for trusting me too. (I said that previously kan? K whatever, nothing wrong with saying it again heh.)
Entahlah eh, I just wish you'd try your best to stay happy most of the time because when you're sad, I really become upset too for idk what asdfghjkl reason. I think I'm weird, yes I am. Oh well. Still willing to have this weird "bitch" in your life? Krik krik.
Found this quote on google which helps to cheer one up. HEHEHEHE.
So, I decided to write it down, take a picture of it and edit it blablabla.
Read it, understand it and then ketawa terbahak-bahak okayyyy? (;
As captioned in the picture, "cheer up bitch ;*".
I love you cute, step sombong person. <3 (Jangan salah faham eh.)
