#np Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
My eyes are hurting as I'm typing this. No, it's not because I cried and thus my eyes feel 'dehydrated' and what shit, hahaha. It's probably because of the major lack of sleep I got last night. 2 and a half hours of sleep to last me around 12hrs in sch? Damn, what was I thinking, ahah.
The past week has been a tiresome one, emotionally, physically and mentally. I'm always tired in all 3 aspects mentioned. Everyone keeps asking me why do I look so tired or troubled or sad and I'll just be like, "Oh, no lah, hahaha i'm okay :-)" How many times will I end up lying? Do lies bring about good or bad consquences? It all depends on the situation really.
Letting go and moving on has never been an easy thing to do. I don't only mean in terms of relationships, I'm also referring to the friendships we have with other people. I'm tired, I really am. Tired of having to deal with consecutive bullshits from specific people who seem to be out to ruin me, lol. But srsly though, what do you people gain from it? I'm curious as hell. Are you really that sadistic that you decide to make me feel as horrible as you perhaps do? Don't take it to heart though, I'm just enquiring.
It's never easy to choose who's just been a waste of time and those whom you should still hold on to.
One thing's for sure, you should never get too attached to somebody be it your crush or your friend. Things are bound to fuxk up pretty fast ya know.
Damn, idk how many times I've dozed off while typing this post, hurhur. Pardon any grammar, spelling and punctuation mistakes if there are any. I'm just too shagged to be a grammar Nazi to myself. Hmm yep, that's pretty much about it I guess. As for the few friends I still have and hold dear to my heart, thank you for listening to my side of the story, believing in me and basically, just being there for me. I really love ya guys, really :-----------)
okay i shall stop here, goodnight luvlies! xx
Friday, March 29, 2013
Friday, March 22, 2013
as long as you love me.
a selfie to end the first day of cca camp? |
grp photo #1 |
grp photo #2 |
with le natasha bee |
hideous face is hideous ;_; |
mehmeh. |
i ran out of faces i swear. |
yay for creepin' on the girl who was tying her hairrrrr. |
whatever.
Monday, March 18, 2013
I've asked myself these questions a number of times before actually.
And, I still continue to do so.
I still haven't gotten my answers though.
Now on the other hand, idk how to convince any of you that this picture ^ is an accurate representation as to how I felt, am feeling and will probably always feel.
meh.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
guess i know how i may or may not spend my night tonight aye.
And on a side note, I find this so true:
yep, that's about it. goodnight. x
Now, all your love is wasted and who the hell was I?
I actually typed out a long, happy post a few mins back and when I tried to post it, Blogger had an error so my post wasn't autosaved and everything was just....gone.
Then, I got shouted at not long after that by my mum.
It seems like a standard routine nowadays; I get home, I get scolded and I end up having a shitty night. And, I'm just made to sit there in silence while I'm being wronged because I'm tired of fighting back so it's okay, I'll just lose. I'll let you say what you want of me. But, it's sad though how you're my mother but yet, you, of all people, have somewhat the least trust in me. You keep indirectly putting me down. Stop, just stop.
As I'm typing this post, I'm silently shedding tears but does anybody in this household/family notice? Nope, because none of you could care twice about me. Who am I, right? I'm just a disappointment to everyone of you; a hopeless screw up who can't seem to get back on her feet.
It's ironic as to how the blogpost that didn't get posted was me sounding really motivated to do better. It was about how I've learnt so much from the motivational and study skills workshop today, how I excitedly shared all that through that single blogpost. But who would have known that just a few minutes later, I'd get put down again, hurt, hurled to the lowest point my self-esteem could reach. It feels horrible I swear.
Why is it that everytime I try to get back on my feet, something bad happens and turn the tables around?
We learnt about overcoming our fears after noting what they were and all today during the workshop.
Guess my biggest fear would have to be not being good enough. Sadly, it's already happening.
Somebody, please help.
Then, I got shouted at not long after that by my mum.
It seems like a standard routine nowadays; I get home, I get scolded and I end up having a shitty night. And, I'm just made to sit there in silence while I'm being wronged because I'm tired of fighting back so it's okay, I'll just lose. I'll let you say what you want of me. But, it's sad though how you're my mother but yet, you, of all people, have somewhat the least trust in me. You keep indirectly putting me down. Stop, just stop.
As I'm typing this post, I'm silently shedding tears but does anybody in this household/family notice? Nope, because none of you could care twice about me. Who am I, right? I'm just a disappointment to everyone of you; a hopeless screw up who can't seem to get back on her feet.
It's ironic as to how the blogpost that didn't get posted was me sounding really motivated to do better. It was about how I've learnt so much from the motivational and study skills workshop today, how I excitedly shared all that through that single blogpost. But who would have known that just a few minutes later, I'd get put down again, hurt, hurled to the lowest point my self-esteem could reach. It feels horrible I swear.
Why is it that everytime I try to get back on my feet, something bad happens and turn the tables around?
We learnt about overcoming our fears after noting what they were and all today during the workshop.
Guess my biggest fear would have to be not being good enough. Sadly, it's already happening.
Somebody, please help.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Watched 'You Again' a few hours back! =)
Summary: When a young woman realizes her brother is about to marry the girl who bullied her in high school, she sets out to expose the fiancée's true colors.
Watch it here if you want to! :)
have a good night! x
live fast, die young, be wild, have fun
Summary: When a young woman realizes her brother is about to marry the girl who bullied her in high school, she sets out to expose the fiancée's true colors.
Watch it here if you want to! :)
have a good night! x
live fast, die young, be wild, have fun
Monday, March 11, 2013
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
meh meh.
so many fakes out there. |
hahahaha ouch. |
ouch, again. |
just a few pictures to ponder over, aye?
oh and here's a pretty picture of audrey hepburn *_______*
ISN'T SHE SO GORGEOUS? ;_; |
yeah okay, that's abt it.goodnight. x
life has got to stop fucking up or rather, mine at least
Sunday, March 3, 2013
ORD LO!~
I spent most of my Saturday procrastinating, sadly.
If you're bored this Sunday, here's a few things to keep you occupied for awhile:
3 interesting Stomp articles to be read:
Watch ABTM part 1 if you have yet to catch this amazing movie.
How about an entertaining yet somewhat creepy video? HAHA.
Ever heard of the Korean drama, 'Playful Kiss'? Apparently, the full episodes are uploaded on Youtube and I happened to chance upon them!! #yay
Check em' out here (:
Maybe you wanna relive your childhood? Catch an old episode of Totally Spies here! ^^
A song recommendation perhaps? (:
This is my current #stuckonreplay song ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCbQ_4PxM0E
Well, yeppp! That's about it! I hope you'll have a somewhat relaxing Sunday before another hectic week starts!
Cheers! x
If you're bored this Sunday, here's a few things to keep you occupied for awhile:
3 interesting Stomp articles to be read:
Watch ABTM part 1 if you have yet to catch this amazing movie.
How about an entertaining yet somewhat creepy video? HAHA.
Ever heard of the Korean drama, 'Playful Kiss'? Apparently, the full episodes are uploaded on Youtube and I happened to chance upon them!! #yay
Check em' out here (:
Maybe you wanna relive your childhood? Catch an old episode of Totally Spies here! ^^
A song recommendation perhaps? (:
This is my current #stuckonreplay song ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCbQ_4PxM0E
Well, yeppp! That's about it! I hope you'll have a somewhat relaxing Sunday before another hectic week starts!
Cheers! x
Friday, March 1, 2013
Tell the world I'm coming home~
hi, cute picture is cute. nice graphics in it are nice. |
SUCH TRUTH IN IT ERMAHGAD. We females seriously need to be more accomodating, tsk @ us. |
Do you know how true this is? HAHA. #femalepains |
mmhmm |
Just a few random pics for the night cause well, I can be quite the random kid.
Been feeling like a hideous potato lately, srs shit.
Having a minor acne breakout or rather, that's what it seems to be.
I've been feeling really shagged this whole week. I feel completely drained of energy whatsoever. Help.
To add on, the stress and pressure isn't really helping to calm me down.
I feel like I can't catch up. Once I don't understand something, that's it. I end up crumbling and caving in to failure and it's scary okay. The moment you start to fall behind, it gets really hard for you to be on par with the rest of your peers. That's when you will start to look down on yourself. It will seem as though nothing is going right. Overthinking and insecurities get the better of you end you end up breaking down. You're in the corner of your room, crying to yourself. You feel alone in this world. It really sucks.
Well, I've got to go now. It's been a pretty okay Friday.
Thursday sucked big time though.
Hi Sarah, I hope you feel better now. -inserts hearts-
Goodnight lovelies. x
Hi you know who you are, i love you ;-*
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