Cause when the heart breaks, no it don't break even.

Heylo! Posting from my iPhone here!
Anyways, I'm headed for tuition soon but I guess I needed some place to rant before I head off.
So yeah, today pretty much sucked. Natasha totally angered me and almost the whole clique knows that I was fucking pissed/angry/whatever. Well, how do you expect me not to be angry? Try being kept waiting at a bus stop for a half hour for your friend and in the end, she leaves without you. And she couldn't spare a few mins to accompany you somewhere but could spend more than that for her other friends? Well, it the feelings sucks. So yeah, I was in a freaking bad mood and I bet no one liked the "ugly" side of me; neither did I. But, I'm only human. After hearing Natasha out, I realized it's partly not her fault as something really cropped up in the process. I apologize for that part. Weird eh? I rarely apologize but please, I'm different now. I know when to give an apology when it's due. Apparently, some other people are being annoying and I unknowingly created a problem like wtf. Whatever lah, up to them what they wanna think. I already said, "You talk to me, I talk to you. You ignore me, I ignore you too. Standard bro." I believe I'm not the only human being who reacts that way either so don't be harsh on me just cause its the cold, hard truth. Amaiam bro? If you not happy, not my problem. But please eh, DON'T ASSUME when you don't even know the head or tail of a story/problem/etc.
Kbye, I'm done ranting.

It feels like we've been living in fast forward.

“A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can’t lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can’t get him out of your mind.”
-by someone else

She's a little bit of heaven with a wild side.

"bad boys ain't no good. Good boys ain't no fun. Lord knows that I should. Run off with the right one".

Amaciammm everyone? ;-))

Well, today was just a typical, boring day. -le sigh-

I got up earlier than usual today than any other Saturday; at 8:30am to be exact. I finished bathing by 9am and after eating breakfast and watching some videos with mummy, I started on my Amath tuition hw at 10am, an hour and a half before my tuition started actually. I managed to solve 1 out of the 3 question given for homework which might I say, is a total #fail. 

So yeppp, I gave up on it halfway and decided to sketch/doodle/draw in my sketchbook. Mummy cut out and collected some pretty cool newspaper cut-outs and clippings which had pretty imprints on them and simple, easy-to-draw figures, shapes and objects of whatever shape and size. 

Well, you pretty much get the idea of it. Thankfully for her help, I'm able to draw "better" stuff in my sketchbook for Elect Art which is gonna be graded next Friday. Haissss. I hope I get a decent B3/A2/A1 (I'll faint if I get A1. LOL.) 

Thennn, I went for tuition if it isn't already obvious enough as mentioned previously. Emath lesson passed considerably fast whereas Amath on the other hand was totally dreaded by me although I love Crystal. (No hard feelings Crystal <3) Slacked during Amath by tweeting and whatsapping Mummy. HAHA, omg too weird. 

She asked me to hurry up as she had bought for me chicken rice and had to rush off to run her errands so, I decided to be a badass; I asked to be released early although I had no good reason to. Jyeaaahhh~ Aiyah, anyways, the lesson was already gonna end in like what; 10-15 mins? Afterwards, I met up with mummy somewhere below my block, chit-chatted a bit, grabbed the food and made my way home. I ate lunch and slacked all the way till around 5.30pm. Woops.

Now, I'm currently doing my emath sch hw and I'll probably send the rest of the day/night, completing my hw. Therefore, I can study for my SS test tmr and rest afterwards. #okcan #leggo

Just Get Your Ass Back Home~

Studying till a little late tonight! (:
Heh.

It's not enough to say that I miss you.

Harluuuu peopleeeezzzxxxccc <:
I took that photo when I returned from Batam and reached home on Sunday night, 24/1/2012. I was away for a short, 3D 2N trip as we wanted to finish up our leftover "rupiahs" as it'd be a total loss if we were to change it back to Singapore dollars as the rate is sooooo low. Anywaysss, I didn't shop much so I just bought a few things. Yeppp. More details will be posted in my travel blog when I have the time during the weekend later (:
So erm, I posted that pic up there on fb and 16 people liked it. D'aww, thanks everyone <3 The awkward thing is, there was a particular somebody whom I didn't expect to like the photo at all. I can never understand that person. It's like we're forever fighting but that person still likes my photos, statuses and all. -le sigh-
I'm confused, literally.
Well, I'm suddenly lazy to continue this post and I shall study Chemistry now till 10 or 10.30pm for now.
Ass Back Home is #stuckonreplay btw (;

Viva La Vida

Today has been a "Sucky Saturday".
I was in a bad mood.
My mum was in a bad mood.
We got into a heated argument twice.
We misunderstood each other.
I cried and ranted to Nat.
I finished most of homework except the ones I couldn't do.
I decided to break for awhile after that and download music.
My mum salah paham's me and shit happens again.
It seems like the both of us can't get along anymore.
And that's what scares me.
I'm afraid.


Help.

But thank you for the pain, it made me face my game.

So...what am I supposed to say here?
I initially wanted to rant but I'm going to reduce that characteristic of mine.
So yep, I'm done here. I'm seriously done.

I don't give a shit, no one else can have ya'.

No matter how many times my friends advise me to forget about you, I will not because I just can't.
Call me silly or foolish; whatever. But, that's because I'm head over heels for you.
I usually go for looks but in your case, that's not how it is.
I go for your personality.
I miss having you care about me.
I miss our sms convos.
I miss our crapping sessions.
I miss those late night texts.
I miss those moments that only you and I know of.
I miss those 13 days.
I miss getting enthusiastic, love-filled replies.
Most of all, I miss you.

I don't care ok; no one else can have you. Hell no, please come back to me. What is it that she has that I don't except you? Can I never measure up to her? Am I not worth it? Am I not worth chasing after? Was I such a horrible nightmare? Do you never want me in your life anymore?

Honestly, I usually don't bother thinking this deep but whenever I'm reminded of you, all these unanswered questions come to my mind and they make me feel like a fucked up bitch. I fucking miss you, you bastard.

G.A.H.

Tell me, why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?

"But you've become, somebody else round everyone else."

My mum's being a pms-ing bitch today. Sure, she can be lovable most of the time but at times, she's just so NGEH and URGH. I shall not tell the full story here cause I'm already tired from ranting it all out to Nat.

ending here cause i gotta go now. haha, k pathetic. goodnight (:

So, get out, get out, get out of my head and fall into my arms instead.

Today was pretty darn awesome :-) I finally met Nurul after 2 freaking years <3 :')
She damn asdfghjkl chio now sia but still as annoying as ever. She's damn girly now and not the same tomboy I once knew. Even Ridhuan said it's as though me and her switched personalities. I became the tomboy and she's the girly one now. Whaddafug. I totally take that as an insult. Tsk.
Nurul used to be the lazy, dumbass who couldn't be bothered about studies and school achievements but look at her now; she's the total opposite! She's gonna receive many sch awards for participating in many school events; cca leader, camp leader, etc... Sighs, that makes me like a fag. It seems as though I've not accomplished anything much in secondary school. I feel totally fucked up now. She's getting good grades and topping subjects/classes in her NA stream. It may be NA (easier than express) but still, getting good grades takes alot of effort put into studies and THAT is what I've not been doing all this while.
She said she looked up to me and followed in my footsteps to get to where she is now. It looks like I have to look up to her now then. I shall aim to achieve beyond my standards. I shall aim to become the old me and I'm fucking serious this time round. I really am. Watch me.
It's like what Nat said, "P E R V E S E R E and #positivethinking". It's about time I pulled up my socks and got back on my feet. I may not be the smartest but no way, am I gonna sink down to the level of being the dumbest. I aim to achieve good grades this year. I know I can do this. It's not gonna be all talk and no say.
I'll prove it to all of you who've lost hope in me or have never placed any hope in me in the first place.

JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE. WATCH ME AS I TAKE FLIGHT.

random.

Read it and be ;O

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/1176801/1/.html

I need that one thing and you've got that one thing.

HEH, came across this f-awesome fan art of Liam Payne ::::::::)

I officially fell MADLY in love with 1D thanks to their "One Thing" mv that was released ytd night. I can proudly say that I'm a Directioner now :-) No, I'm serious.

I watched their video diaries about a month back and fell in love with Louis' hilarious antics and personality but I still wasn't convinced enough to be a fan of 1D. 

However, after watching the mentioned mv, I fell in love with Liam and Louis even more. <3

I'm still not in love with Zayn and Niall sadly but I hope to be charmed by them soon :3

Harry's my first love from 1D but Liam is my current obsession from the group. <333333333

So yeah, basically, today's post is to express my newfound love for 1D which will hopefully grow tenfolds soon enough. Hehe.

I'm too distracted by them rn to even remember "him" as of now. To hell with him.

To heaven with 1D ;-)) #Directioner

Just get back up when it knocks you down.

NOVEMBER BABY
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Re-post in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot.

Hello! The picture up there ^ was taken during the Sec 1 campfire this year; 2012! It's my favourite pic out of the many that we took (: Hehehe. 

Anywaysssssssssssss;

Today actually passed by pretty fast and Art Stage was pretty darn awesome (: The works of art really "WOW-ed" me like I hoped they would and I'm just utterly impressed. I feel even more inspired to try to be able to come up with amazing pieces of art like theirs. I took quite alot of pictures and me and Nicole took as many Vitamin Water drinks from the refrigerators as they were free!! HAHA!! I took 5 bottles. NYEHEHE.

Me and Jie Hui went home using my car; Papa was my chauffeur again :3 After dropping Jie Hui off at Eunos MRT Station, my dad and I went to go eat Yong Tau Fu at a shop nearby our house. I'm so freaking full now but I must say that the food was expensive lehhhh. Haissss curse you inflation.

"Inspired frmo Shophere likeageesix

Do you know, every SIM CARD has a name ?? Try this !! :D

1st step : from your number take the last 3 numbers, ex :: 9xxxx910, take "910"only

2nd step: do this @*[910:0]

3rd step : remove the sign * And

press enter in the comment box! :D"

copied that from someone's fb status. heh. kbye.

Nothing lasts forever; I can't believe I hoped for us to last that long.

Hello! Today's cca was fun thanks to the awesome company I had a.k.a Nat & Janani (: 

Nat was "molesting" me alot and I was apparently, making her laugh non-stop. She even kept calling me cute throughout the day. Something has definitely gotten into her. She's completely lost it cause she's never complimented me before in the 2 years that I've known her. 

Anyways, I'm gonna talk more about yesterday; specifically, yesterday night.

I aimed to finish 1 malay practice paper before I slept, in preparation for the next day's malay test but as I listened to more sad, love songs, the more I was reminded of him although I've been trying my best to forget about him this past week. I've come to realise that there's no point fighting this forceful resistance that I've been trying to put up cause no matter what, the feelings and memories of the past come back round and are still able to affect me no matter what. It's just a matter of how deep I let if affect me. 

I gotta be honest; I miss him alot and no one else can ever replace him. I'm dead serious.

I just wish I knew his true feelings about me as of now. Does he feel the same or do I mean completely nothing to him anymore? I've been dying to know.

Hi, if you happen to see this, you will obviously know who you are and that I'm referring to you. I love you and I miss you. Can we get a second shot at trying to last forever? Please?

Sighs, ok, I'm gonna get my rest now. Goodnight! xoxo. <333

I smile through the pain.

Hello! It's officially the end of the 2nd day of school today and I'm asdfghjkl tired. I took that picture above after I got out from the lift on the 10th floor of my block. Heh, ok, unnecessary info given. Don't I look really tired and haggard in that pic? No, srsly, I look as if I aged years. I'm not liking this one bit.

I reached Eunos at 6:12pm today as I had to stay back for CCA Open House booth duty with Natasha and Janani. We failed at convincing the Sec Ones to join A&K I tell you. Some of them were really shy and adorable, some were nice and decent but SOME were just obnoxious and I wanted to punch them in the face.

Ok, maybe I'm only feeling this rash because I'm just so physically and mentally tired that I can't seem to think straight. I'm gonna have to stay back until 5:30pm tmr and around 8pm on Friday. Btw, this is only the freaking first week of school and I'm spending 3/4 of my time in school, wasting my time away when I could be completing my homework, doing some revision and lastly, get my well-deserved rest from a busy first week at school. But nooooooo, CGS is dead bent on "torturing" us. Haisssssssss.

I had my 1st HML lesson with Cikgu Kartinie today and she's just plain awesome I swear. <3

The rest of my teachers may suck ballz but thank god, at least, I have an awesome teacher like her that stands out among the rest. I definitely have hope of achieving constant A2's to A1's this year. :')

I'm pretty okay with my Lit teacher as well a.k.a Mrs Rupa! She seems nice and I think she's good. 

Let's hope I'm not wrong! Hehe. 

Ok, bye for now! Natasha Bee is pestering me to study! I should prolly listen before she starts "buzzing" (nagging) at me. heehee. xoxo.

Chapter 2012 Page 1 of 365 1/2 .

"I'll make sure that one fine day, you'll be deeply in love with me"#ombakrindu

All the budak-budak Melayu's have been talking about Ombak Rindu lately; maybe I should watch it some time. Well, I must say that THAT quote really applies to me. Yeah, one fine day, I'll hella' make sure you'll be deeply in love with me; just you watch out. ;-))
I spent 31/12/2011 with my cousins ytd night <3 We watched Sherlock Holmes, A Game of Shadows throughout the new year! It was totally not a well thought out day. I must spend the last day of 2012 wisely.
The movie was uber good though! The plot was confusing but witty, with a few touches of moments worth laughing over here and there; definitely one of the best movies I've watched in 2011.
I'd give it a 3.5/5 rating, just like my mum! Heh.
Was texting Hazeem, Rasul, Dylan, 'Syafiqah', Zafeerah ytd night! I wished all of them Happy New Year and hoped that we could all have a fresh start. And now as I'm typing this post, I just realised that I forgot to wish my abg Yasin!! OMFG #brb!!!
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heh, ok, I've whatsapped Yasin liaozxc. I totally screwed up in 2011 man. I've had so many arguments and saddening moments in 2011 fer' sure. I think I was at loggerheads with almost all my guy friends and even had friendship problems in school. But thankfully ytd, I've cleared it up with all of them. :-)
Rasul and I are officially friends again! YAY! \m/ Hazeem wished me a Happy New Year and even added in a "love you" in his text to me. I was like "0.0" for I was totally shocked at that part. So, I asked him what he meant and after pressing him for an answer, he replied "Love you like a gf maybe?" I totally don't know how to react to that. I mean, it's a new year now. I don't intend to look back on the past when we ALMOST got together as a couple. LOL. But, I'm cool with him being my adik and all. (:
Whereas, I think me and "Syafiqah" are officially done with each other like seriously. "Syafiqah" has "her" partner now and I don't think it's right for me to intervene. I've woken up from my delusional state (I hope) and I'm kind of ready to move on now. 2012 will be a good year, I know it will <3

Who is your role model, and why?

My mum and no reasons are needed :)

Blah de Blahs go here ;D

Merry Christmas, my dear friends :-) Don't forget to smile~

Sflr! and thank you :D

Blah de Blahs go here ;D

What are the few of the best things you achieved this year?

Nothing much to be proud of.

Blah de Blahs go here ;D

What's one thing you've said this year that you didn't mean?

did you mean in 2011? I've said alot of things I didn't mean actually...

Blah de Blahs go here ;D