I'll make you beg, make you come to your senses.

Can I be as pretty as them please? :((

Especially the 2nd one. She is so hot + cute = perfect combination <3 :'(

#nowplaying: Pink ft. Travis McCoy - This is how it goes down <3

I felt the bite 
Take a spit 
Suck the poison out of me 
I'll make you beg 
Make you come 
To your senses 
If you keep up the shit 
Take the hit 
Dig the grave 
This is how it goes down 
This is how it goes now 

I'm supposed to be doing Math you know so whydafug am I on Blogger? -.-

Oh yeah, because it's time for my daily dose of spazzing over him :/

When is this gonna stop? When am I going to stop being so pathetic? Sighs.

I finally took the first step yesterday. Did I do the right thing? Wrong, perhaps? 

Well, I can't undo what has been done. :/ Can I?

He says he still likes me (quite) but yet, he has given up on liking me. G.R.E.A.T

It's exactly how I expected it to be. Whydafug is this happening? 

If he can stop his feelings, why can't I? :((

ARGH. I feel urgh. 

You know, we touched each other's hands by chance yesterday.

You do not know how much I want to replay that moment <3

Oh and I almost touched your *ahem*

EH THAT WAS ACCIDENTAL HORH :p

------ ok cancel everything that has just been said ------

I have someone else in my life now currently, I guess.

It's someone whom readers of my blog may be familiar with. 

It's been a loooong time since I mentioned ElectroKid yeah? :') 

Talked to him the whole of last night till 1am. Last night was by far the best night I've ever had <3

He regretted not realising that I was the one for him all along. But nah, it's ok.

Even if I do not have him in the end, I will still survive.

I'm better off single.

In the meantime, I shall be envious of whoever owns this posh pad:

Oh and whatever it is, I just want to give this heart to both Ridhuan & Rasul. Both of you are some of the best people I've ever encountered in my life <3

I'm better off alone...

Just the thought of you can drive me wild~

So you have a crush?
Apparently so :3
Who is this person?
My cousin :/
Why do you like them?
I really don't know. He liked me before. I guess it's like a natural reaction?
Are they attractive?
Bad grammar yo~ Erm, he's pretty ok too me <3
On a scale from 1-10, how attractive are they?
Not too attractive yet not too ugly. I'll give him a 6-7.
Do you talk on a regular basis?
Kinda. Yeah.
Do you know them?
Like duh. If not, how am I able to talk to him? -.-
Do they even know you exist?
Yes.
Are you two friends?
Damn, that's a hard one. I have no clue :/
How long have you known this person?
Since P3 or P4 I guess?
How long have you liked this person?
Almost 2 months now.
When did you realize that you liked this person?
When I finally woke up and realized that he was the one who was the silent admirer all along.
What color eyes do they have?
Oh gee. I never really bothered to stop and look at his eyes -.-
What color hair do they have?
Rainbow :P Ceyh, no lah. BLACK.
How tall are they?
Puberty just struck. He's now taller than me.
What’s their height?
GDI. Does it look like I know? -.-
What ethnicity are they?
Malay yo~
Do you know where they’re from?
Singapore. Where else? Uganda is it?
What is their religion?
Islam. 
Do you talk to them?
Oh no lah. Then what's my mouth for? -.-
Do they have siblings?
Yep. 1 younger bro and 1 younger sis.
What’s their favorite color?
Blue, I guess?
Do you guys hang out?
Nope. But as a family, yes.
Do you have the same friends as them?
Erm, a few I guess.
Do you go to the same school?
Nope. I'm smarter (; Ceyh, no lah.
Do you have classes together?
Hell no.
What’s their favorite hobby?
Sports? NCC? Playing PSP?
Do they play a sport?
Street soccer! K wait, that was only in JB. LOL.
Can they play any instrument?
Nah.
Do they like animals?
Quite :3
Are they a vegetarian?
No, he's a cannibal -.- 
Do you two have many things in common?
Kinda, I guess? We both love K-POP and some other stuff which I've yet to figure out. LALALA~
Do you text each other?
Urgh, don't remind me. And yeah, we used to until his mum confiscated his phone.
Do they have a car?
His dad does.
Do you get nervous when they look at you?
In the past, hell no. Currently, hell yes.
Do they take your breath away?
Y.E.S :((
Do you gasp when they talk to you?
Nah, I keep it cool yo~
Have you ever tried to ask them out?
Nope. Impossible beb.
Are you going to ask them out?
Nope.
Are you going to try to know them better?
I know too much about him already. .___.
What’s your favorite thing about them?
He's actually a really sweet guy to the girl he likes <3 His adorkableness :3
Do they make you laugh?
Yes :')
Do you buy them gifts?
Not yet. But he bought me something before. (;
Are they creeped out about you?
He probably will be if he finds out I like him one day. XP
Do they even have a clue that you like them?
NO CLUE. But his sister may give him a hint or two. Oh well.


Moral of the story Mr Quiz dude: YOUR GRAMMAR SUCKS BIG TIME YO.

Loving You is Suicide ♥

#nowplaying B2ST - Back To You

How ironic ain't it? The song currently playing relates to my life 100%. I keep on running back to the person I love HAD to come across that picture up there on Tumblr just now. It's like karma is coming towards me all over again. /sighs/

Thanks alot dearest father. You gave me false hopes that we would be going to Ridhuan's house today -.-

I realllyyyy wanted to go today ok! Grrrrrr. I want to go to his house. I want to have private heart to heart talks which I used to have with him last time. I want to turn back time. I want to undo my mistakes. I want the freaking past back. )-:

Woohyun is coming to Singapore today! :-D Though I can't meet him, I really hope he enjoys his day here in Singapore ^^ Oh, and I must not forget about Cheonjoon oppa as well :-) Have a fun time at Rain's concert  in Sing guys ♥

Currently continuing mummy's Umrah presentation. Aish. When will I ever be done with this? _l_

I'm seriously very tired of the constant shit I have to face. I'm just afraid I won't be able to take it anymore one day. /sighs/

Did bad for MYEs. I'm just glad my parents are able to give me another 6 mths to prove myself. C'mon Amira. No fooling around this time, like srsly. JIAYOU! JIAYOU! ♥

Hi Nat. I hope you get to read this. Cheer up and heck care bout her. You have US. We rock more than her yo (; Just stay positive ok? YOU CAN DO THIS. JIAYOU! ♥

I should probably get started on the 10-Day Tumblr Challenge after the Umrah presentation. Okkkkk. That's the plan! :-D

Oh and look at that pretty little wedding dress ^-^ I wanna wear that for my wedding if I were to be lucky enough one day :') 

Kbai <:

Get me outta here cause my eyes are burnin' from these silly tears

Eh cute rightttttttt <: Ok no, I'm not perasan-ing diri. I created this GIF looooong time ago but I didn't know what to do with it :p Well, my maid and annoying grandma are gossiping in my bedroom. Whaddafug is the world coming to. LingJun created fb today! 12/5/2011 - The day history was made. (; OH OH OH and farhana created twitter. That pandi ah (Y)

Well Maths paper was the last for MYE today :D H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S but yet it's a #moodkiller cos everyone's like so fvked up after the paper. Like dude, it was a piece of hard shit. I pray that with luck, I can get 53. Ya Allah, tolonglah makbulkanlah doaku Ya Allah. HambaMu memerlukan pertolongan Ya Allah. Amin. -prays- All I can do is to pin all my hopes on God that he'll help me out thru this :) Please do ><

TODAY.WAS.THE.BEST.TTM.YES.OMG.HI.

Me, Nat, Janzxc, Swat, Nad and Marianne went to Swensens at Plaza Sing and it was pure EPIC shizz ok!~ Today's outing really cheered me up after going thru hell with the math paper. Thank god for idiotic, lovable friends like them <3 :') ILY GUYS. I wish you all could see this thang I'm dedicating to you. NYEHEHE. Camwhored and window-shopped alot. AAAAAHHHH, it was too funnnnnnnn. Can we please do it again sometime? And yes Nat, Dec is reserved for Seoul Garden I dun care :p muahahaha. 

Me and Nat bumped into Nat's madrasah fren, Syafiq at Star Factory today. HAHA. He sho cuteeee but nah, I'm not gonna steal him away frm Nat. I'm not a mean ass please :p Too bad pandi farhana and pavi could not tag along. Urgh. Unfairness. :/

Made a new Korean friend today! HEHE. Hi Sunyeo! ^^ You so cute and adorbz please <; If you ever come to Singapore, I treat you to the good food here ohkay? nomnomnom saranghaeyo grandson <3 hahaha. Love, grandma (;

BE THE ONE. ALL FOR ONE. B1A4. Hi Jinyoung, Baro, Sandeul, CNU and Gongchan, you are all sho keeyut! <: lovelovelove you guys! :') <3 <3 <3

I'm 14 and I act 14. Cool Shizz Yo~

[] You know how to make a pot of coffee 

[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar

[ ] You own a credit card

[] You know how to change the oil in a car

[] You've done your own laundry

[ ] You can vote in an election

[ ] You can cook for yourself

[x] You think politics are interesting 

TOTAL SO FAR: 2

[x] You show up for school late a lot

[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket

[x] You've never gotten a detention

[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday

[ ] You like to take walks by yourself

[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[X] You know how to do the dishes

[X] You can count to 10 in another language

[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[ ] You can mow the lawn

[ ] You study even when you don't have to

[ ] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up

[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name

[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out

[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need

[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said

[X] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment

[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party

[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[ ] You have more bills than you can pay

[X] You have been to the beach

[X] You use the internet every day

[X] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times

[ ] You make your bed in the morning

[X] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

TOTAL: 14

*** Repost this with the subject as: I'm (how old you are) but I act (what you got on the test)

Kiss me kkiss me, Infect me with your poisonnn.

This picture speaks my life and the tumblelog I got this from totally understands me <3

#nowplaying: E.T by Katy Perry

Your kiss is cosmic <3 Currently addicted to this song and 'Need You Now' by Lady Antebellum thanks to Dong Lin. HAHA. That weirdo is sucha darl to me please <: Basically, I've been currently very addicted to E-POP, especially sad love songs. I've got a pretty good list up till now (-;

My Playlist:

• Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
• E.T - Katy Perry
• Back to December - Taylor Swift
• Mine - Taylor Swift
• If I Die Young - The Band Perry
• Dead and Gone - T.I feat. Justin Timberlake
• How Do You Sleep - Jesse Mccartney
• Hate That I Love You - Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo
• Knock You Down - Keri Hilson feat. Kanye West & Ne-Yo

Well, there's more than this honestly but I can't really remember all. These are the main ones I listen to :> Some are pretty upbeat songs but the overall message is related to break-ups and unrequited love and all. I cannot listen to 100% menyedihkan songs please. Later I go kill myself how? HAHA. Ok that's #craptalk man. Well, I just killed 3 weird-looking insect thingies and I was peeped in on by a fvking huge wasp earlier in the afternoon. URGH, insects hate me :/
Hi you, yes I miss you but I don't think you miss me. Is it my fault for loving you or abandoning you in the past? I'm sorry.
Cleared up the misunderstanding between pandi and me and the rest of the group! Feeling better now but it's gonna take some time before things are REALLY back to normal. Well, I can wait (: Staying positive here like what I wrote for my EL compo exam.
It's either I look at the cup half full or half empty (:
And ohmykimchi, it's MOTHERS' DAY TOMOLO!
What to buy, what to buy. And the fvk, I quarrelled with my mama just now leh. It just had to be before THE day -.-
Nevermind, I'll just crap up some cheapo emotional stuff. Hehe. No lah, I not so mean please. Although she may be a pain in the hole, but I love her ttm <3
I LOVE YOU MAMA DEAREST! \m/


Wahaha. This post velly colourful. HOHO ^o^~~~

I gots that boyish/girlish feel.

1. YOUR BOY SIDE
[x] you love hoodies. 
[x] you love jeans. 
[ ] dogs are better than cats.
[x] it’s hilarious when people get hurt. (well, sometimes) 
[x] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a car racing game.
[ ] you played with hot wheels cars as a kid.

[ ] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.

[ ] you owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega. 
[x] you used to be obsessed with power rangers. 
[x] you have watched sports on tv.
[ ] gory movies are cool.
[ ] you go to your dad for advice.
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] you used to collect hockey cards.
[ ] baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[ ] it’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. 
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think. 
[ ] sports are fun.
[x] you talk with food in your mouth. 
[x] you sleep with your socks on at night. (sometimes)
[ ] you have fished at least once.

2. YOUR GIRL SIDE

[x] you love to shop. 
[ ] you wear eyeliner. (sometimes)
[ ] you wear the color pink.
[x] you go to your mom to talk. 
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] you hate wearing the color black.
[x] you like going to the mall.
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] you like wearing jewelry. 
[ ] you cried watching the notebook
[ ] dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. 
[x] you don’t like the movie star wars. 
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics.
[x] it takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x] you smile a lot more than you should. 
[x] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] you care about what you look like. 
[x] you like wearing dresses when you can. 
[ ] you like wearing high heel shoes.
[x] you used to play with dolls as little kid. 
[ ] you like putting make-up on others.
[ ] you like being the star of everything.
[x] pink is one of your favorite colors.

3. APPEARANCE 
[x] i am shorter than 5′5″.
[x] i have many scars. 
[x] i tan easily. 
[ ] i wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] i have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] i have a tattoo.
[x] i am self-conscious about my appearance. 
[ ] i’ve had/have braces.
[x] i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
[ ] i have more than two piercings.
[ ] i have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

4. EXPERIENCES
[x] i’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] i’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ]  i’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] i’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] i’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. 
[x] i’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. 
[x] i’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. 
[ ] i’ve been to a casino.
[ ] i’ve been skydiving.
[ ] i’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] i’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] i’ve crashed a car.
[ ] i’ve been skiing.
[ ] i’ve been in a musical. 
[ ] i’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. 
[ ] i’ve seen the northern lights.
[ ] i’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] i’ve played a prank on someone. 
[x] i’ve ridden in a taxi. 
[ ] i’ve seen the rocky horror picture show.
[x] i’ve eaten sushi. 
[ ] i’ve been snowboarding.

5. RELATIONSHIPS
[x] i’m single. 
[ ] i’m in a relationship.
[ ] i’m engaged.
[ ] i’m married.
[x] i miss someone right now. 
[ ] i’ve gotten divorced.
[x] i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t. 
[x] i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.

6. HONESTY/CRIME

[x] i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t. 
[x] i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t. 
[ ] i’ve snuck out
[x] i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
[x] i’ve cheated while playing a game. 
[ ] i’ve ran a red light.
[ ] i’ve witnessed a crime. 
[x] i’ve been in a fist fight. 
[ ] i’ve been arrested.

7. DEATH and SUICIDE
[x] i’m afraid of dying. 
[x] i hate funerals. 
[x] i’ve seen someone/something dying. 
[x] someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide. 
[x] i’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] i’ve written a eulogy for myself.

8. RANDOM
[x] i can sing well 
[ ] i stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] i open up to others easily.
[x] i watch the news. 

[ ] i don’t kill bugs.
[x] i sing in the shower. 
[ ] i am a morning person.
[ ] i paid for a cell phone ring tone. 
[ ] i am a sports fanatic.
[x] i twirl my hair. 
[x] i care about grammar. 
[ ] i have “?”’s in my screen name.
[ ] i’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
[] i bake well.
[x] my favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange. 
[ ] i would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] i like martha stewart.
[ ] i know how to shoot a gun. 
[x] i laugh at my own jokes. cause they’re funny
[ ] i eat fast food weekly.
[ ] i’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class.
[x] i can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room. 
[x] i am ticklish. 
[x] i love white chocolate. 
[x] i bite my nails. 
[x] i’m good at remembering faces. 
[x]  i’m good at remembering names. 
[x] i’m good at remembering dates. (if they’re important)
[x] i honestly have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. 

[x] all my answers were totally honest.