I'm so sorry but I didn't know...

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

`I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.

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A certain someone should read this post...

So in the beginning of the school year of 2010, this girl thought no one was cute at all thought after a while, she noticed that she had this one class with this guy, she liked him a lil, they talked a bit, then near October this new guy transfers to DSJI, and she completely fell in love with him, he was the first person she fell for that year. But they never got together and the semester was ending and she knew that she should get over him because she wouldnt have a chance, she thought that he liked her close friend, so she did get over him. After a while, she started to get really close with the first guy she liked, and they talked, he fell for her, and he decides to confess to her, saying,he liked her when he first saw her, but he got over it. 

They could have confessed to each other and when he did confess to her, she didn’t want to be in a relationship till that school year ends, so he waited three months,during that period, they got closer, and you can saay that they were ‘seeing eachother’ I guess. Then on the last day of school,6-23-10, he finally asked her out ! And she excitedly said YES ! And they went on dates, yaa daa ya daa, then on their one month, he got her lots of heart shaped balloons and this pair of necklace, one for her and the other one for himself. Almost every night, they would both argue about who loves who more and when ever they caught 1111 they would wish to last longer than three months. Though when September came, they started to fall apart, he became this really different person, and she got upset. She confronted him but he didn’t even try to explain. Then it became 9-22-10, he broke up with her saying he losts feelings, they hugged, and she insists him not to let her go till the tears rush back in, cause she didn’t want him to see her cry, then minutes later, she let go of him. And went back to her friends, she was sad. All that came into her mind was ‘what happened between us?’ 

Then after that day, she thought back ! She hated him for what he did at first and was very sad about it, though her friend was right, if he lost them feelings, well then he losts them, theres no point on carrying on with the relationship. Well now we officially got the answer to who loves who more, but it doesn’t matter anymore. After the end of the day, she figured it wasn’t that bad, and it’s all fine now, she got her friends and homies, and she doesn’t deserve his bs, so she decides to get back up and start again. Oh, she’s still cool with him, I guess, she figured, now that she has nothing to do with him, she shouldn’t care much about him anymore and about what he does.

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Dear Amira

Stop procrastinating. 
Do your homework. 
Study for your EOYs. 
Do well for your exams.
Pass your maths and get at least a B4/B3.
Get good grades for all subjects so you can shut your parents' mouths up.

Hey darling, don't worry, you have lived ur life well :')

Hey there Nadia :')
I know we're not really that close and all but upon hearing that you have left this world, I srsly broke down. I just can't imagined how you were suddenly taken away from all of us like that. You left us yesterday. I'm sorry that I only found out today, a few minutes ago. I hope you will forgive me for all that I've done to you. To tell you the truth, I found you to be quite a bitch and a minah kental last time. But I guess we just have to live and let live. Sorry eh babe for watever wrong I've done to you. I guess one does not knw how much tat some1 means to her until they leave you for life... Actually, I'm glad u have left this world nadia bcos I can't stand seeing you suffer. I knw it was really painful. I admit I duno how it felt but I'm still sad all the same. You were really strong babe. You could withstand all that pain for 6mths and longer. I salute you for that. Gd job nadia. You have left a deep impression on everybody. Everyone remembers you now :) We  are all mourning for ur loss. We all miss you nadia. I duno whether you can see my typing this frm up there but I just want u to knw that I love u lots babe.


Loving and missing you loads nadia,


Amira♥

Ur so thoughtful ♥♥♥ Thnks :)

Another post dedicated to you Farhana. HAHA! Oh gawd... sounds so wrong (Y)
Anyways, well yeah, ur words reali mean alot:

"i didnt noe"

"i new there was sometHing more srs then stomachache but i didnt want to make u cry"

"becos if u r tHinking of smtHing sad and someone asks a qns then u if feel lyk cryIng"

It amazes me wat an adorable sweet thang u can actuali be Farhana :') Thank You! ♥♥♥

Another fren to share my pain. That, I'm thankful for ♥

Hey Farhana.
I knw ur probably reading this right now. You stalker! HAHA. Jus kidding :)
Well, thnks for letting me confide in you. Means alot. I felt so much better knowing that you know how much pain I feel. At least, I'm not alone. I have you to back me up. Thnks. :')

Well, what I told you was not even 50% of the pain and hardship that I've gone thru. There's so much more to tell but I shan't burden you with it. I have no right to. But anyways, thnx for the sweet words Farhana :') ♥♥♥

These words are what brought tears to my eyes and a smile on my face:
"u noe something u r really awesome"

"u can smile even though u have so much pain in your heart"

"u r truely awesome"

"if i were u i would have given up on life  but u kept strong and made everyone laugh"

"i srsly admire your inner strength"

"wish u were my sis"

"hey lim sry i got to go for a wHile but i will be back soon so byebye for now and take care"




Thnks Farhana :) Underneath all that blubber (hehehe.. jus kidding ^^), ur a reali sweet and nice person :')
I wish I was ur sis too! Kekeke ^^ ♥♥♥



Laughter is the best medicine right Farhana? :D *laughs*