Junho my husband, Jinwoon my lover. Hee~

Is it me or is the picture too big? Hmm.. Oh well~ My problem. Hehes.

TeenageKpopDream FTW~ <3 Well, Sunday is coming. I CAN'T WAIT! But the down side to it is that Ridhuan is gonna be there. Like wtf -.- Went to Mnet Ultimate Live on 4th Dec. Wait, have I posted about this b4? K, nvm, I shall just talk about it again :P Half the time, I couldn't see anything sia. It was such a heartbreaker. I tot I was gonna end up going home empty-handed bcos other fangurls got teddy bears frm 2AM and roses or lollipops frm 2PM. 2PM oso threw their towels. DAMN :/ Others oso got to touch their hands so many times! But me? Not even once sia :< Managed to take a few fancams but of course, not that pro ah. Pictures all fail x( -sighs- But thnkfully, nearing the end of the concert, 2AM's Jinwoon smiled at meee ^^ I officially heartzxc him to the max now <3 Gomawo oppa! His eye smile is to die for!!! Another stroke of luck! - SS3 is gonna have a 2nd show in Singapore and I bought tix! HELL YEAH!!! But now, I have to save up $200 to pay back my mum and I oso have to save up for 2PM's future concert in Singapore. Khun says they're gonna come back. I NEED TO SEE THEM! MY JUNHO <3 Hey bb, I love you. Hee~ Made up with my syg, which is weird cos I duno whether to believe it or not :/ It's ok, I have my husband, Junho~ And Brown Eyed Girls' Ga-in is so hawt sia! I tink I will turn into a full-fledged lesbian for her. Hehe.

Lee Junho my Superman~♥

He just had to be created right? I wanna thank his momma personally for giving birth to such a beautiful soul like him :') Lee Junho will forever be mine. I DON'T CARE. I knw I can nvr own him physically but dreaming as though it may happen makes me happy enuf.
Junho oppa has not been using his Twitter acc recently :( That makes me upset. -sighs- Oppa, wo hen xiang ni...
He never gets enuf air time and I'm sad to see him in such a state. Ever since Jay left, 2PM is just...different, sad to say. But it's the truth. Only 2PM and JYP themselves knw wat reali happened during AAA period. There are many things I'm afraid of but the main thing is, I'm scared that all our favourite Kpop idols may just be putting on a front. They may just pretend to act all nice and cute but in real life, no one kws for sure if they're snobbish assholes who dun give a fcuk about others. I'm afraid to knw the truth. -sighs-
But yet, I dun feel that way towards Emperor Junho <3 I feel that way towards Nichkhun, honestly. It's just an instinct, I may be wrong. But, I may be right as well. Oh wells~ Only they themselves knw. But honestly, I dun believe every single one of them are just putting on a front. There must be a few that are truthfully beautiful souls :')
Lee Junho my love, till the day whereby the truth may be revealed, I will nvr stop believing in you and you can be assured of that. ♥♥♥
LEE JUNHO SARANGHAE♥♥♥

Cry me a river...

Chatted with Nasha just now. HAHA. Epic shizz babeyh~ Eh hadi, she likes u lah and u like her back! YAY! I shall play matchmaker then \m/ U two so cute lah. Dun bully Nasha eh hadi, she's my adik tau. ;> Alah hadi, u ni mat kental that is gd-looking, siape yg tak nak sia~ But I was shocked when you said you dun wan to be in a relationship in sec sch. (Y) I respect u for that BUT I dun tink that will be the case. Confirm u have gf in sec 1. Honestly, Nasha's a pretty bitch, u should go for her. HAHA. Ok, now I'm sounding too mean ;P Character wise, I duno :/ I was looking at her pictures, I tink she's taller than meeee!!! OMFG. UNFAIR.
Btw, I've got new target now ;> Yeah, you guessed it Nira. He's like angmoh and asian mix sia~ SO FRIGGIN HAWTTT <3 The irony is, I duno his name nor do I knw how old he is. Damn :/ Sad case. For some reason, I think he's in primary sch but for some reason, I dun tink so cos he dresses damn hot like a teenager. Oh wells :< Nvm, keep on persevering. MUAHAHAH.
I tink I'm becoming too despo again. Haha. I gotta admit it, I still find you cute lah Hadi. But too bad it aint meant to be. You go date my adik larh, alamak....
I've said too much now :-x Kthxbai <3

Pop the bottles in the ice~

Currently sms-ing my syg~ His gramps passed away tday. Dun be sad k syg? :-(

Musical Evening on Saturday was actuali uber awesome excluding the fact that I was crying like shit when I realised SS3 tix were sold out. I was like WTF?!?!?! Went down to the Heeren yesterday to try my luck at getting SS3 tix. Total failure :/ Bought Mnet concert tix instead. WTF LARHHH! I want SS3 tix!!!! That's why I'm gonna stay up tnite to try my luck at the publice sales tnite! Cmon, pls give me the tix! I NEED THEM SO BADLY!!! :'(

Nickhun oppa had a fantalk on twitter just now! But he nvr reply my tweet :/ Bleh. Oh wells~ Far East Movement rocks like random shizz sia! Like a G6 and Rocketeer rocks manzxc~ Fatin and Mai r starting to suspect me and my syg. Shit sia. And mai, you and faris should date like srsly :) 

Right now, I just hope that Allah will help me in getting the SS3 tix! Pls ya allah! I really am desperate for them! :'(

Syed talked to me on fb just now. Looks like he still likes me and has not forgotten all the mean shit I did to him in the past :/ Sori syed! But in the past, you were reali pissing me off. That rich boy has 1 SS3 ticket to spare me but he's deciding whether to give me or not. Pls syed! I need it very badly, consider me despo or whatnot but I just want that friggin ticket!!! 

Life has just been hell for me.. Yesterday was fcuked up. You may see smiling on the outside but god knws what's going on in the inside. I confided in my syg yesterday, told him stuff that I should not even have told him. Maybe it's bcos I trust ppl too easily? He promised me that he's not a mistake. I sure hope so :/ I LOVE YOUH SYG! YOU HAVE BEEN THE BEST! YOU CANNOT LEAVE ME ALONE ANYMORE? UNDERSTAND? \m/ ♥♥♥

TeenageKpopDream~

Currently Tumblr-ing. I'm so proud of myself, you know why? Cos I deleted 1 out of my 3 Tumblrs! Pro rite? -wink wink- I deleted the teenagekpopdream one. Then, I renamed the kpop-paparazzi one as teenagekpopdream. So yeah, confusing life story :) So chio right the gurl in the picture up there? She reminds me of BoA. Eh nat, I need you to follow me on Tumblr again, hehes. You knw the link kan? ;> Janani is currently obsessed with Twitter. Tsk. As for me, I'm addicted to this wonderful thing called the Internet. Hell yeah it's so awesome~ <3
Well, yesterday was not. Started talking to Ridhuan again. I must be a mad ass to do that. We almost 'k-ed' last night but hell no, I still got my senses horh. He said, "Maybe next time." I dun even want it to happen. I've been thinking. Honestly, I rather do it wif my syg than do it with H.I.M. Sori Ridhuan, crushed ur hopes again ;-P I was surprisingly nice to him yesterday. Eww, gross. I can't believe I was so out-of-character yesterday. Like wtf?!
Had so much fun sms-ing my syg yesterday! Whee~ Love you syg~ I've now been promoted. He calls me wife now ;) So happie~ I'm on cloud 11. No more cloud 9! I dah hapuskan liao. Hee hee~ Hi husband, I <3 you -hugs-
Ok, I should get off Blogger now. Bb ^^

Imma be rocking ur world~

Had angklung again just now. Saturday's musical evening! YAY! \m/ I'm kinda excited actuali for some awkward reason. YUPDUPDUP. Tmr, wow tmr. I'm probably gonna go to Ridhuan's house for Hari Raya Haji. I DUN WAN. I want to talk to my syg~♡ I love my syg loads! He's my batman and minah♡ We've been together for 6 days syg! I ♡ YOU. L8r must sms me kay? ^^ Ate with Nat and Janz just now. EPIC SHIT. Nat nat, baru je 13 and you already had ur first kiss. Syiok seyh~ Aku pun nak ;> HAHA. Ok, being too naughtyeh now ;-P I wanna delete my tumblr cos having 3 Tumblrs ain't helping cos I keep procrastinating. Hi Ridhuan, I knw ur still despo for me but too bad, I attached to my syg liao♡ My syg says he's forever free for me! Aww.. I heartzxc him to the max X 100!

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ my sayang~

Imma pick myself up and continue running~♡

Imma be looking so fly~ Imma be touchin' the sky~

Went to Johor yesterday. It was a complete waste of my time. I didn't enjoy any part of it except when Hadi was acting all goofy. HAHA. Cute lah he ;> Ridhuan was acting all emo. IDGAF. Just because I didn't wanna talk to him, he acted emo. The more emo he acted, the more I wanted to tampar his muke sia! @#$%! Later in the day, I felt that I should talk to him but the more he tried to act pitiful, the more I felt like, why the fcuk should I sia? The only gd part was when we went to eat seafood at Senibong. It was niceeee babeyh~ But all the while, I was missing my minah ;( Minahhhh~ I missed you like shit lah yesterday! When I finally reached Singapore, I texted my minah immediately! Whee~ Hi syg, I just wanted to let you knw that I love youh so much and yes syg, we have many yrs ahead of us ;> ♥ ♥ ♥ Muaks syg!

Oh, and the best part is yet to come. *sarcasm intended* I'm gonna meet Ridhuan again nxt wed and nxt, nxt saturday or is it a sunday? And then Dec, we're all going to KL together! YAY! \m/ I'm so happy, NOT. I rather spend my time goyang kaki with my syg ♥ ♥ ♥
Hi syg! We've been together for 5 days liao~ I'm so happiee~ I'm oso Nat's abg ipar now. Like wtf? XD 


Had anklung earlier in the day. I'm now tired and duno wat to do. Damn, i need to stop procrastinating. But, I can't ;>

It hurts on that special day itself.

Video of the day: 2NE1-It hurts

Today is my birthday manzxc. I got quite a few presents and damn, do I love them! This year, my birthday is different. No birthday cake and no fancy celebration. But it's ok, as long as I got to spend it with my mother :) I LOVE YOU MUMMY! It's uber cool how we share the same birthday :D
Hi ElectroKid, I duno if u knw that it's my birthday today. I duno why u ain't replying my smses. Maybe ur Prepaid's low again? I duno.. But I tot u just topped it up that day.. Watever lah..
And btw, I'm starting to get pissed with you Ridhuan. Really pissed. So do me a favour and just zip it for the time being. Kthxbai.

Two is better than one.

Video of the day: After School - Because of You

DAMN! I love this song sia. So fcuking awesome. It has listed whatever I'm going thru right now. After reading the eng sub of this video, all the more I love it <3 Ok yeah, I'm gonna make this a two in one post. Gonna talk bout yesterday and tomorrow :)


30.10.2010
Yesterday was hell awesome. Went to watch Eat,Pray,Love with my mother ^^ The movie is like my sweet escape sia! It's everything I've ever wanted-going around the world to find one's true love. HELL YEAH! Then I realised that ElectroKid had texted me. I was shocked but somehow, the usual feeling of happiness and excitement was just not there. I duno why. The convo didn't last long though. Oh wells..

31.10.2010
Today was hell awesome also ;) My parents gave me presents today. My mother gave me a Sembonia haversack :O WOAH. Be jealous man! HAHA. My dad gave me a wallet. It's pretty nice :) All I could give my mum was an e-birthday card. I made it myself. She seemed to like it. *cheese* Tmr's my birthday :) I dun think ElectroKid noes that... :( Fcuk lah. I'm just fcuking fcuked up right now. Should I text him? I duno..
I just love tday! Went to eat at that halal branch of Fish&Co. Damn nice sia but service hen lan. Tsk. Bought loads of stuff, - hershey's chocolate, clothes, TEENS magazine. Whee~~ HappyGurl01 on the loose :D
At least Ridhuan fb-messaged me to wish me an advanced bdae but ElectroKid leh? Eff him. I duno what to do... I srsly duno... :(

My HAEverything~

Hehehehehe. Well techinically, Ryeowook oppa is my everything but yeah, so are you Lee Donghae ;) I forgot to write you a happy birthday message yesterday. That's why I wanna do it now ;)

Dear Lee Donghae,

Gosh, I duno where to start. There're too many awesome things bout you that I would love to list down. I dun mind doing that but I gotta sleep soon so I guess I will have to cut it quite short. Forgive me oppa :( 

Anyways, the most chim answer would be that ur just u. :) 

You noe wat, I shall just try and list down as many things as possible:

• You are part of Super Junior
• You are one great dancer
• Quite good vocals
• Kind heart
• Beautiful soul
• A smile to die for
• Beautiful eyes
• You tear up easily
• You love your dad
• You cherish SJ alot
• Ur a gd hyung and dongsaeng
• Ur really nice to Hyuk ;)
• Ur part of EUNHAE! <3
• You really cherish us ELFs
• You're an inspiration to us all

And btw, there is SO MUCH MORE I want to say but I shall stop cos I dun wanna 'flood' my page~ ;)

You even said these sweet, heartfelt words. :')

Looking at the shining sea of Sapphire Blue makes me tear up. Perhaps in the beginning, it was said that ELF would not have..existed if Super Junior hadn't debuted. But as time passed, we (Super Junior) cannot do without ELF. Without them, we are nothing.

GOSH LEE DONGHAE. If it wasn't for ur existence, I wouldn't have existed either. Hangeng oppa has left, I hope you won't be the next one. Without you, Super Junior is nothing. Same goes for every other SJ member. I knw you miss ur dad. He misses you too. I knw he's up there, smiling, bcos he knws ur succeeding in life. And that is what makes him and ELFs happy :') Continue being the dorky, lovable and hunky idiot you are Lee Donghae ;)

SARANGHAEYO LEE DONGHAE! HWAITING LEE DONGHAE! LEE DONGHAE DAEBAK! AJA AJA HWAITING! JJANG! <3

Just shut.

 Anyways, went for a movie just now to make up for yesterday's losses. Went to watch 'The Other Guys' and maybe I shouldn't have watched that movie after all. Kind of a waste of money in the sense that it wasn't that funny or impressive a storyline. Wat a poser... But I didn't want to make my mum feel bad so I said that I kinda enjoyed the movie. GOSH. Maybe next time I shan't choose the movie cos apprently, I have severe bad taste (Y) And yeah, I still kinda miss him. Fcuk lah. So long since we talked, even longer since we met... I'm still waiting for a miracle. Grant me my wish pls? :/

Hell yeah, this boy is aweshum ;)

I love how he says "4 autographed shirts"! OH GOD! THAT WAS CUTE! Why haven't I noticed his charm before?

I'm so sorry but I didn't know...

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

`I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Source: http://fckyeahcutecouples.tumblr.com/

A certain someone should read this post...

So in the beginning of the school year of 2010, this girl thought no one was cute at all thought after a while, she noticed that she had this one class with this guy, she liked him a lil, they talked a bit, then near October this new guy transfers to DSJI, and she completely fell in love with him, he was the first person she fell for that year. But they never got together and the semester was ending and she knew that she should get over him because she wouldnt have a chance, she thought that he liked her close friend, so she did get over him. After a while, she started to get really close with the first guy she liked, and they talked, he fell for her, and he decides to confess to her, saying,he liked her when he first saw her, but he got over it. 

They could have confessed to each other and when he did confess to her, she didn’t want to be in a relationship till that school year ends, so he waited three months,during that period, they got closer, and you can saay that they were ‘seeing eachother’ I guess. Then on the last day of school,6-23-10, he finally asked her out ! And she excitedly said YES ! And they went on dates, yaa daa ya daa, then on their one month, he got her lots of heart shaped balloons and this pair of necklace, one for her and the other one for himself. Almost every night, they would both argue about who loves who more and when ever they caught 1111 they would wish to last longer than three months. Though when September came, they started to fall apart, he became this really different person, and she got upset. She confronted him but he didn’t even try to explain. Then it became 9-22-10, he broke up with her saying he losts feelings, they hugged, and she insists him not to let her go till the tears rush back in, cause she didn’t want him to see her cry, then minutes later, she let go of him. And went back to her friends, she was sad. All that came into her mind was ‘what happened between us?’ 

Then after that day, she thought back ! She hated him for what he did at first and was very sad about it, though her friend was right, if he lost them feelings, well then he losts them, theres no point on carrying on with the relationship. Well now we officially got the answer to who loves who more, but it doesn’t matter anymore. After the end of the day, she figured it wasn’t that bad, and it’s all fine now, she got her friends and homies, and she doesn’t deserve his bs, so she decides to get back up and start again. Oh, she’s still cool with him, I guess, she figured, now that she has nothing to do with him, she shouldn’t care much about him anymore and about what he does.

Source: http://fckyeahcutecouples.tumblr.com/

Dear Amira

Stop procrastinating. 
Do your homework. 
Study for your EOYs. 
Do well for your exams.
Pass your maths and get at least a B4/B3.
Get good grades for all subjects so you can shut your parents' mouths up.

Hey darling, don't worry, you have lived ur life well :')

Hey there Nadia :')
I know we're not really that close and all but upon hearing that you have left this world, I srsly broke down. I just can't imagined how you were suddenly taken away from all of us like that. You left us yesterday. I'm sorry that I only found out today, a few minutes ago. I hope you will forgive me for all that I've done to you. To tell you the truth, I found you to be quite a bitch and a minah kental last time. But I guess we just have to live and let live. Sorry eh babe for watever wrong I've done to you. I guess one does not knw how much tat some1 means to her until they leave you for life... Actually, I'm glad u have left this world nadia bcos I can't stand seeing you suffer. I knw it was really painful. I admit I duno how it felt but I'm still sad all the same. You were really strong babe. You could withstand all that pain for 6mths and longer. I salute you for that. Gd job nadia. You have left a deep impression on everybody. Everyone remembers you now :) We  are all mourning for ur loss. We all miss you nadia. I duno whether you can see my typing this frm up there but I just want u to knw that I love u lots babe.


Loving and missing you loads nadia,


Amira♥

Ur so thoughtful ♥♥♥ Thnks :)

Another post dedicated to you Farhana. HAHA! Oh gawd... sounds so wrong (Y)
Anyways, well yeah, ur words reali mean alot:

"i didnt noe"

"i new there was sometHing more srs then stomachache but i didnt want to make u cry"

"becos if u r tHinking of smtHing sad and someone asks a qns then u if feel lyk cryIng"

It amazes me wat an adorable sweet thang u can actuali be Farhana :') Thank You! ♥♥♥

Another fren to share my pain. That, I'm thankful for ♥

Hey Farhana.
I knw ur probably reading this right now. You stalker! HAHA. Jus kidding :)
Well, thnks for letting me confide in you. Means alot. I felt so much better knowing that you know how much pain I feel. At least, I'm not alone. I have you to back me up. Thnks. :')

Well, what I told you was not even 50% of the pain and hardship that I've gone thru. There's so much more to tell but I shan't burden you with it. I have no right to. But anyways, thnx for the sweet words Farhana :') ♥♥♥

These words are what brought tears to my eyes and a smile on my face:
"u noe something u r really awesome"

"u can smile even though u have so much pain in your heart"

"u r truely awesome"

"if i were u i would have given up on life  but u kept strong and made everyone laugh"

"i srsly admire your inner strength"

"wish u were my sis"

"hey lim sry i got to go for a wHile but i will be back soon so byebye for now and take care"




Thnks Farhana :) Underneath all that blubber (hehehe.. jus kidding ^^), ur a reali sweet and nice person :')
I wish I was ur sis too! Kekeke ^^ ♥♥♥



Laughter is the best medicine right Farhana? :D *laughs*